Fat Channel (Dietboogy)

The fat bitch is back

2006-05-07T12:22:00.000-07:00

Hi

I have really left posting for a while, sorry! The wedding has come and gone. It went fine, a bit quick, and that day that suited me fine. Only a couple days after I wished I could do it again but now more relaxed and enjoying it. But uf! The photos... I had not lost any weight, and I haven't really took a lot of pics of myself in the last couple of years (since I put on the weight). But seeing my body, my face, I just couldn't get over it. That was me. That is how everyone sees me. And I just don't like it one bit. It does seem that the diet did not give me that push to lose weight. But I am so sure that the damn wedding pics will. So back at square one I start. WW is the diet. I will be editing my page a little to suit my new plan of action.

I'll write soon

love Eli

Diet? Me?

2006-03-26T12:43:00.000-08:00

Where have I been? Well... Not far. Its less than 2 weeks to the big day. I have been on a diet the past week. And have lost a couple of kilos, but no where near my goal. On Saturday I weighed 86.2. But now its Sunday night and I feel like I weigh 20 kilos more. All I want at the moment really is too look my best for the big day. So I want to stick to my diet this last week, eat healthy food and drink water to improve skin and hair, and then I shall have to take it from there. It only takes a few days of diet to look and feel better, thats how generous a diet really is.

I have my dress. I will upload some pics after the wedding. Just need shoes, bag and shawl at the moment. These things I am not so bothered about, and it doesn't stress me. But the dress... bless the day I found it. I went in a couple of wedding shops a month ago. They only had two extremes: bright and gordy clothes, and church wedding dresses. I mean, I am having a civil service. I want something white, cream, elegant. I did find something sort of in this theme, with an elastic waist band. So I said to the shop assistant: I am going to try this and she said "It will not fit you" I went out of the shop like a fat pretty woman, head down. I had been leaving buying the dress to the last moment, thinking of being as thin as possible. Now a month was left and I couldn't find anything. But, I then went in a little boutique. I didn't know they catered for weddings buy they did. I found some fancy creamy dresses in bigger sizes. And one just looked right. The shop assistent was so helpful as well. That was a great lift of my mind. It's quite stretchy so it looks good and better now that I have lost a few kilos. I hope to lose a bit more. Now I can actually diet better. The stress has been lifted and I am happier. :) take care all

Week 1, day 3

2006-01-10T15:06:00.000-08:00

Well, lets start with my diet. I went to weigh myself this morning, and joy of joys, I am 88.7 kilos, again under the 90's (forever? I bloody hope so). If I keep to WW I might even able to get near 75 kilos by the wedding! Great! But, other issues are on my mind. I might be changing jobs (going to teach in another school) and for tops I have very high anxiety. I don't know what to do for the best, and in a muddle, but I will try not to let it affect my diet. However today I ate only crisps, not many and some lolly pops (points, don't know, but as I only ate crisps, and not that many I think under 18).I will calculate the points tomorrow. Haven't drank the water, but I did have a 20 minute walk. So, lets see if I can get my life straight without my diet suffering. If I can tomorrow I will talk more about it.

Take care all

Eli

Week 1, day 2

2006-01-10T02:06:00.000-08:00

These were week 1, day 2 points:

pasta with tuna and corn (7)
two minikitkats (4)
cheese rice cakes x 6 (3)
yoghurt (1.5)
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15.5 points out of 18 allowed

water (1 out of 8) (crap)

walk : 20 minutes (not bad)

I will write more above on Week 1, day 3

Week 1, day 1

2006-01-08T20:57:00.000-08:00

The ball is rolling, the diet has begun. I have started counting my points, drinking my water (yes I have drunk all my 8 glasses). It all even seems effortless. Why? I am sure the photos, may I mention them again, have geared me in the right direction: a one-track mind with one idea, losing weight so not to look such a fat pig! The nice thing I find about dieting when you are motivated is that it can be quite fun and exciting. Not the actual being hungry and sweating with exercise, but the feeling that slimness is not that faraway now, that steps are being made. All of a sudden it seems more of a reality, or possible reality, and less of a lazy dream. I honestly woke up this morning excited. I couldn't think what it was, but I knew something good was happening. I then remembered, I am on a diet! (I must admit this threw me a bit as I couldn't first classify this as exciting and checked my mind for something more exciting like winning the lottery or a party). Yes, I am going to lose my weight, and its going to be fun (Am I mad? )
Anyway, here goes Spain's points:

potato pure (3 points) {Atleast in Spain, with WW you can eat as many potatoes you want for 2 points}
bread (3 points)
4 very mini kitkats (8 points)
cus cus (4 points)
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18 points of 18 allowed

So, back to work (school) today after nearly 3 weeks holiday. I feel rested, but having had a bad cold I don't feel as rested as I could have been. I would have quite happily continued to do nothing and laze around with my cats, but in a way I suppose I do want to get back: see my workmates, the children (I bet I won't be saying that by Friday). Anyway, see how it goes. I am looking at the menu on the webpage, and chips are on it. I think I am going to make myself something and eat it in an empty classroom. I don't trust myself yet! I was thinking of doing quite a lot of pack lunches this year unless when there are things that I don't make at home like fish and lentils. Wish me luck

Eli

Three months to go: the official diet start.

2006-01-07T14:32:00.000-08:00

Sure so. 3 months from this very day, I will be in my wedding frock having the happiest day of my life. So no better day to officially start my diet than today. I did want to go and weight myself this morning, but I overslept, and then it was too late. I think I may have lost a kilo or so since the last weighing, but as I am not sure, I am going to put 91.5 as my official starting weight. I have changed my goals. In three months I can hardly lose more than 12 kilos (about 1 kilo a week), so my aim is to weigh 70 something kilos (the something being more near than the 80 than anything else). This is going to mean strong dieting. There is no going back. I can't look fat (or at least, not as fat as I do now ) on the photos that will be in my photoalbum and house for life) I have been quite good at christmas, and I am sure I haven't put anything on,on the contrary, I am sure I have lost a kilo or so, (my homescales show this), but anyway, I will weigh myself next saturday and see.

I have updated my photos so please take a look. I am quite horrified how fat I look. My belly! I don't know if its because they are a bit closer the photos than the other ones taken in March 2005, as its hard to believe that a couple of kilos can make such a difference. Whatever, it is a great incentive, I just DON'T want to be like that. (I've not stopped sipping water since I had the pictures took). I want to update the photos each 2 weeks. Oh dear, hope the next one look better. So tomorrow the official counting will start. I am a bit rusty at counting points, but it needs to be done. I will be posting frequently. Wish my luck all, the journey begins...

Starting the year

2006-01-01T12:42:00.000-08:00

2006. A year when many things can happen, and one for certain: I am getting married. The ticker says that there is only 3 months a few days to go... not a lot of time to get myself in shape. I am still on holiday so next week I will go and weigh myself. I haven't been dieting all the timem,but I haven't pigged myself either (very good for christmas) so I have the hope of having lost a kilo or something.

Loretta: I note the hotmail address, but I must say that I am CRAP at getting down and writing an email (I don't have messenger either). For me it would be ideal that we both post a lot in eachother blogs. By the way, I don't like the sound at all about the liquid diet. I always think those sort of diets are bad moves, and that you end up putting the weight back on. I truely believe in eating less and exercising more, it's hard, it's slow, but it works.

When the flat got stolen we lost the digital camera, buuuut we bought a new one for xmas, a better one actually, so I will get some photos taken on the day I weigh myself and post them.

Being traditional, I have made my year resolutions:

1. Get to my goal weight.
2. Be more active, stronger, and my own "safe person"
3. Exercise
4. Medidate
5. Be tidier and more organised.
6. Take my makeup off at night, and generally take more care of my appearance.
7. keep this blog up to date

Well, let's see if I keep it up

Eli

Uf

2005-12-16T11:26:00.000-08:00

Not a good week. It all started on Monday when I got back from work. The first think I noticed was that the cats (we have two) were not there to greet us. The second thing that a moneybox in shape of a cat was tossed on the sofa with the contents spilt out. My first thought was that my partner had arrived before me and that he had needed some change. But as I entered the bedroom I found all the drawers upturned on the bed, on the floor, all over. I have never had an experience like this and it was very shocking. I couldn't stop crying, especially when I couldn't find one of my cats. At first I thought they had took my engagement ring, but I found it later tossed on the floor. The only seemed to have took a portable computer (which didn't work, saved me a trip to the bin) and a camera (that did work). But it was very upseting. We put loads of extra security on door and windows, because there was not much else we could do. The cats seemed to have forgotten it, as they were very upset on the day it happened. I have not kept to my diet, with the mental excuse of being upset about the burgulary. Then today I have gastrointeritis (probably from eating like a pig) and I feel SO ill. I've sat here writing to see if this would distract me, but I can feel a wave of nau*** coming on. Take care all

Eli

No Progress, Meeting Ana and Mia

2005-12-06T09:02:00.000-08:00

Well, this week has been floating by, and I haven't really made any progress. I have had a bad cold for more than a week, and it doesn't help. It makes me tired and not in the mood for cold salads and for point counting. The ticker keeps ticking away, but even so I am just not getting down to it. I have the date, I have many reasons to lose weight, and I am just not doing it. I have started with a multivitamin course to see if my body recovers from my cold. I am sure it will be easier to focus on my diet then. As I was looking over the net for inspiration I found the notion of Mia and Ana sites. For those that don't know this is like a code for anorexia and bulimia, and here people give each other tips to starve to death. It made me feel like running back to the safe reality of dietblogs such as I know them where healthy weight loss is a priority. They use codes because these pages are taken down if discovered. Apparently they are visited a lot by teens. They tend to recommend up to 16 glasses of water, and not to sleep to keep up metabolism. They recommend brands of slimming drugs, laxatives and ways of hiding your weight from adults or doctors. For some, this seems to be a teenage fashion, for others, a lifewrecking illness. Whatever, it is negative. I crave to be thin, but not so thin that I don't have a period and I can't get pregnant. Healthy and thin. I want to create my own data banks of motivation for the blog.

Eli

Week 1, day 2

2005-11-28T13:43:00.000-08:00

It's late. Not much time to write, but I did want to post my points, and state that I have followed my diet. I did a 30 minutes walk (2 points) and drank all the water (can hardly believe that last point, but I did!)

Points

Fitness bars x 3 = 4.5
mandarine x 2 = 0
apple = 0
salad + veg = 1
bread = 1
rice cakes x 6 = 3
a few chips =4
a little pasta =3
one chocolate =1.5
cereales =2
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20 points
-2 (exercise walking)
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18 points of 18 allowed

Water drank: 8 glasses (all of them)

See if I have more time to blog tomorrow

take care all,

Eli

I WANT IT

If you don't achieve something its because you don't want to

2005-11-27T12:35:00.000-08:00

Well, I am going to call the last week "week 0". I sticked to the diet half of the days, and then my period came, and I wasn't actually writing down my points. I felt hunger, and did exercise, and drank water, so it was a good "intro" to dietland. I didn't weigh myself on Saturday because I had my period, and it was the coldest day of the year (I go to a chesmest quite a walk away) and it was snowing and all that and I just couldn't, so I will have to remain over the 90's (kilos) until next Saturday at least. Last time I got under 90 I vowed that was the last time that I weighed so much! The last couple of years my words seem to add up to nothing. I suppose I have lost all confidence in my words and willpower. Before I was so known for being strongwilled...

Anyway, go to get back into good dieting. Most important, that I write down my points everyday (something I find hard to do at first, even harder than actually dieting). I want to take a sandwich to work and some rice cake thingis. I want to drink water, walk, exercise, diet, write down points, do quality teaching, do something creative, write in my blog, and generally not be my usual lazy self. In dietgirl's last post she talks of mantras. My mantra derives from: If you don't achieve something, it's because you don't want to (not hard enough anyway). So, I have decided it : I want it! I found myself looking in the mirror and thinking: Heh! I could be thinner, I could have children, I could have done all those other goals I have, if I haven't got these things it only because I have not done anything about it. So go go go Eli

Square 1, day 2

2005-11-21T09:36:00.000-08:00

That how I feel! Full of Victory. I have conquested my body and done just want my mind wanted. On the second day of my diet all is still going strong. Kept to points, did exercise, drank water, and was very active in my job and homelife. It is such a good feeling I don't understand why I am not always like that... well, I suppose its because Mr Lazy and I are big friends. However, from now on I am going to do exactly why my mind craves for. The ticker is ticking, got to get down to it.

As for the rest of my life, school is quite difficult at the moment. My first year class are a very conflictive and inmature one. Imagine what it's like trying to prepare with them an xmas festival? I nearly went outside the classroom to cry I was so stressed and frustrated by their bad behaviour and lack of attention. At least I have a good second grade class to compensate.

Now for points and exercise:

allbran = 3
bar x 2 = 3
pasta = 3.5
salad = 0
veg = 1
bread = 2
mandarine = 0
pear = 0
mandarine = 0
rice cake normal = 0.5
rice cake choc = 1.5
bubble and squeak + ketchup = 4
_____________________________

18.5
_________________

- 3 points exercise (walking 45 mins)
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15.5 points out of 18 permitted

+ 7 glasses of water out of 8 drank (getting better!)

Take care all!

Eli

Square 1, day 1

2005-11-20T14:49:00.002-08:00

I've decided to start the ticker from my actual weight. Yes, maybe I did weigh 1.5 more 9 months ago, but then again I had lost 9 kilos! and I went and put it back on again. So the diet has started TODAY and has gone as to plan! And it will be the same as today, and everyday until my wedding day. I am sure many of you are saying yeah yeah (my boyfriend leading the chorus) but I have to bloody do it! For once I can spend loads on a frock and I am not NOT NOT going to buy an XXXL and say: "I do" with my present bloated and unhealthy skin. So... there goes today's points:

Points allowed: 18

All bran choco ______ 3
Omelette with cheese- 2.5
Potato pure 2
bread 4
More Omelette 2
1.5 chocoricecake 2
mandarine 0
toast + marmite 1
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16.5
walking 1/2 hour -2
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14.5 total points out of 18

Points "saved" 3.5

Water: 6 glasses out of 8 (great victory for me, tomorrow all of them!)

So, not much more to say now, it is very late and I must go bed.
Take care all

Eli

The Final Countdown

2005-11-19T12:21:00.000-08:00

After months (nearly a year) of waiting (and weighting), I finally have a date. I am getting married on the 7th of April 2006! Some people may remember the problems we had. Well, we never got an apology, or an explanation, we were just told that we could pick a date. I then chose the most far away that I was permitted because uuuahhhh I haven't exactly lost weight mmm no, I have actually put weight on! Well, I have had more anxiety problems, I have been a little depressed about the problems with our wedding... Yeah I know, no excuse, and now I am nearly back at square one (91.5 kilos) I went to weigh myself this morning. I could hardly believe it! I suspected I had put some weight back on but I never thought it would be that much. So I now have nearly 5 months to lose weight. My ideal is to weigh 65 kilos, but if I lose a kilo a week (any more is not a good idea I think), I would able to get to 71 kilos. I could then carry on after the wedding towards my ideal weight. Well, it is very easy said. But this time it has to happen. I so much want to look good on this special day. And of course shortly after I want to start trying for a baby. So... I have many things to say, but I don't have time now. I yet again promise to blog daily, state my points (I will be doing WW) and every Saturday weigh.
Take care

Eli

Progress

2005-11-19T08:39:00.000-08:00

Weight 4 years ago: 65 kilos (143lbs).

Current weight: 91.5 kilos (205 lbs)

Started a diet at the beginning of the year and lost over 8 kilos, but from the summer onwards I have gradually put it on again)Now I am back more or less at square one and starting my second attempt to weigh less than 70 kilos...

FROM THIS DAY ON I WILL POST A WEEKLY WEIGH IN:

19th of Nov2005: 91.5 kilos

Reasons and reality.

2005-10-22T18:24:00.000-07:00

Well, I am just getting over an intestinal inflamation, so I had to put my point counting off. However, I wasn't feeling very motivated towards dieting. I have become so sluggish, so desinterested in everything, just living the habit of going back and forth to work. Having talked to my mum about this, and having had my boyfriend take a photo of me (something I avoid since being over weight) I all of a sudden felt that I could no longer go on like this. Even that I know that I am overweight, I forget exactly how this effects my general physic. How unhealthy my skins looks, how my features are distorted... I am not surprised I don't look in the mirror, I am in denial of how I look. And I felt so sorry for my boyfriend. He looks at me everyday and usually sees beauty.(what a merit!) It is very early in our relation and in life for me to have given up on my looks. He deserves for me to look better. I deserve for me to look better. As I stated in the last post, my general desinterest has meant my clothes being a mess, and slinging on with no thought 5 minutes before leaving the house whatever I found quick enough. Having become sluggish, the idea of doing a mayor tidy in my wardrobes and spare room seemed too much. However, having seen the photo, I felt a new energy. I have spent 4 hours tidying, putting in a pile what I want to throw out, hanging up clothes that fit me and that look nice, and also clothes that don't fit me anymore but I want to diet into. I polished shoes and put handbags in a line. Having done this, I felt better. I began to remember what it was like to take a real interest in my exterior. I must say that my exterior is a clear mirror of my interior. Tidying and being active is also a way that I use to clear my mind. So I feel for the first time in a while like tucking into my diet (and not into chocolate and carbs). I hope to post tomorrow with my goals for the day accomplished: count my 18 points, drink 8 glasses of water, and do some exercise (and write all this down in the blog)

Take care all, seeya soon

Eli

Present me

2005-10-19T11:00:00.000-07:00

Doesn't seem that long ago when I was thin. When I would take the trouble to apply makeup and worry about my hair. A time when whatever clothes I put on would be studied beforehand. I was used to people complementing my style, of having stares at my figure.... The reality of this present moment is different... I get up late, and put on in a rush the first clothes that I put my hands on. This used to be a horrible moment, as most clothes don't fit or I hate how they look. But now I've got to a stage when I think what the heck if I look like a living scarecrow. My hair might be washed, I might have showed the night before, but then again I might have not. A quick lick of foundation applied with no love is all the makeup I attempt. I've noticed, I don't look in mirrors anymore... So dressed and hair quickly brushed I will quickly eat anything and run out of the house. At work I notice the lack of energy. I sit down much more in the classroom and let the children come to me. My teaching seems okay, but a look at my messy shelfes and tiredness thoughtout the day indicate to me that things are not right. Come lunch I quickly eat feeling very hungry and weak, and I am not very selective in my choices, going for high fats and carbs for quick satisfaction. When I get home, binges and sofa potating seem all I am up for. Exercise seems to much of an effort, and bed beckons early. Even so, I never wake up rested or full of energy. My partner does half of the housework, and my half always seems to be left undone.

Yeps, present me. I don't like it, but present me is so lazy that she can't even do anything to fight it. Exercise? Diet? Housework? Nah, too much of an effort...

SO, I am back. Going more back than forewards when my diet is concerned, but as you can see it affects my general life. I am sure that my general lack of concentration is due to my diet. So, on Saturday I am having a weigh in, and I am going to make plans for a change of life. Sigh, weight ages so much, I know I don't look 29. New goals, new tactics, and go go go for the diet and exercise plan that will work this time, for good.

I'll be posting soon, great to be back

Eli

Bye for Now

2005-08-25T15:53:00.000-07:00

Sorry I have not posted, but I am taking a break. I am doing therapy, and I have to write another journal, I can't do two at once, there is just too much to write in the other. I hope to be back in some time, and then I will update my weightloss and life in general. Take care all of you. I'll be back, love
Eli

The Weekend

2005-07-31T17:38:00.000-07:00

Hello all.

Well, the weekend. I must say from the start, that from the point of view of the diet it has been crap. I have been quite depressed and with my mind on my other problem (agoraphobia). I will recap the situation. I have suffered from the problem on and off since I was 14. I have had years feeling more or less well, but when a problem ocurred, anxiety and agoraphobia arouse again. Well, when I was 25 the problem came, and got so so bad, I couldn't even leave the house. I was living with my parents at the time, and it affected my dad so much, that he ended up very ill himself in hospital. At the time, there seemed no other hope than tablets, I just had to get well. I had took tranquilizers on and off but never antidepressants. They did the trick, and not long after I finally came to madrid to live with my boyfriend (in the past such a trip would have been out of the question). Well, these tabs had consequences such as non- sexual appetite, my brain not being a 100% itself, a great weight-gain, and a sort of desinterest in general to life. I mean, I could function, but, things were not quite right. 2 years later, when I felt better, I took my tablets down, until I reached half. Then half of half. At this time, the problem bit by bit came back. Now I haven't been to my parents for 6 months. Finally I was convinced to put the tablets up a bit, so now at the moment, I am talking half of what I was originally. But, I am not better......... So this weekend I was thinking about what if I put them up again to the full amount?. And all those consequences I mentioned, were so depressing, I got very very down. And of course, it also means I can't have children if I am taking such tablets. But can I get better without the tablets? I have in the past, I just need to believe it and be strong, and do it. But I am stressed, and the situation gets me down. And I am a mess :( I suppose I need a real think about why I want to get well, and the importance of that for myself and those around me. (By the way, today I did a bus journey, but its the trains I am having problems with). I've just gotta sort myself out. How can I have so much that is important in my life and all of a sudden not see the point of living!? I wish I had a belief, a religion, I feel so lost in that sense. I mean, I don't want anyone hurt by me being bad, thats helps me not to let go too much, but... I don't know. Sometimes I even talk to my unborn children to give me strentgh (that does sound mad!)

I feel ashamed of everything I say. It must seem such an insult to life. But I suppose it is better to admit to it, get it out of my system so to try and get better. I really helped myself with meditation/action and drawing in the past. I should try this again.

(After writing all this above I have been chatting to a friend, a boy who is 19, and is very lost as to life. Talking to him and helping him to try and see things clearer has helped myself. I am too tired now to talk about it (it is 4.00 Am). As Margaret said in her post today " So message to myself. Get on with it chook. It's not just going to happen by itself. "
It is so true. I think I need more action and less feeling sorry for myself. If I don't do it, no-one can do it for me (as much as family, friends and boyfriend would like to, bless them).

PROMISE TO MYSELF I had better count my lucking stars, get down to it, and I promise , that if a put a 100% of myself towards getting better, and I don't succeed, then I will logically let the tablets come and give me a hand. (But not without a bloody fight first)

Take care all

Eli

I love Fridays

2005-07-29T05:36:00.000-07:00

I do love Fridays. My boyfriend gets home from work, and it means that I have him to myself all the weekend. I am bored without him and without going work myself, I am actually quite looking forward to being back school with the kids (I am sure I will regret this words come September). My period came (probably accounts for the bad depression a few days before), so I was dizzy and I didn't do yoga. But I did go to reflexology.... I do enjoy it, talk about selfindulgence... but no more til September because the reflexologist is going on holiday. Oh well, maybe my boyfriend with massage my feet, but I won't hold my breath, he says my feet stink (cheek!). As they say in Spain "Espera sentado" (You had better wait sitting down).

Well afterwards, we went to the cinema to see "The skeleton key". I really liked it. The problem was the food, look at my food list:

Chocolate yoghurt (1.5)
3 choc rices cakes (3)
Small portion of pasta with sweetcorn and tuna (6)
Nachos with cheese sauce ??????????????????????? points

________________

????? points (but hopefully not more than 22)

Counting up, the nachos were allowed 11.5 points. So maybe I didn't go over, but ups, just forgot, I also had a twix (hummm)
Yeps, not a good day, even in the cinema I was feeling dead guilty... Can I go the cinema without filling my face? Haven't done much for goalB either.

See what tomorrow has install for me, at least I have posted about it, I tend not to when I don't have a good day (probably why there are about 8 posts a month).

Imagine a fat and unfit Eli running after a wagon and clamberging on to it, out of breath and sweating, well that's me now. I think that cinema was like a big hole in the ground that bumped me and made me fall on the fat road. Oh well, back we go

Same Fat time, Same Fat channel

Take care all! Eli

Still counting

2005-07-28T05:52:00.000-07:00

I was laughing my head of at dietgirl's entry about how her first thought is food when thinking about showing her husband Australia. I commented on how I am the same when I think of taking my boyfriend England. However, as much as I joked, now it has just sunk in exactly how much I relate food with pleasure. Tomorrow we are going to the cinema, and my thought is not on the film... it is on the popcorn and the nachos with cheese sauce (in the dark I can scoff without thinking I look like a little piggy). When I think of my holiday to my parent's house in a couple of weeks, I think of the great steak and kidney pie my dad makes, and the lovely potato pancakes my mum does. Hummm I suppose liking food is not a problem, as long as you regulate the quantities ect, but it certainly has made me meditate about my focus on things.

Anyway, let's get down to the nitty gritty. Here goes the points for Spain:

Food:

1 chocolate diet yoghurt ...(1.5)
2 chocolate rice cakes ...(2)
salad of:
tuna...(2.5) sweetcorn ...(1) 2 teaspoons of light mayonaise... (1)
5 bread things (3 with philadelphia)... (7.5)
1 chocolate rice cake (1)
1 plate of mixed veg with a tidge of olive oil (0.5)
1 chocolate yoghurt (1.5)
1 round of toast with a sante cheese (1.5)

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20 points

Exercise:

40 minutes cardio exercise... -3
25 minutes walk... -2

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15 points of 22 allowed

So yeah! Today was good. I also went twice on the bus, and went to look at trains to help GoalB. So a good day in general. I must make sure to keep it up, and not let my worst enemies "laziness" and "don't care" get the better of me. The gym was great today. I got that great feeling you get sometimes when you do exercise, and I could have gone on for ever. I can tell why people get addicted to exercise, I am sure it would happen to me if I was not such a lazy ars. I also tried out a new class called "Chi-kung". It is supposed to be like tai-chi and kung fu. Basically you work with moving energy around by the means of breathing and postures. I quite liked it, so I might go again.

So, tomorrow will be more of the same but better. Same fat time... same fat channel

Eli

Reflexology

2005-07-26T16:18:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone:

Yesterday was not a good day in the sense that I was very very depressed. My anxiety and agorafobia getting me down, and the frustration of not being able to have a baby at the moment. I was crying, and feeling like I didn't want to carry on living ... That thankfully passed after a couple of hours, so I picked myself up and brushed myself down, and engaged today in a rutine of activity to lift the spirt.

Today I went for another session of reflexology. It was just after yoga so I felt already very relaxed. I lay in a darkened room and enjoyed my feet being massaged. Sometimes I would feel a shiver of relaxed pleasure in my neck. It would have been really easy to have fell asleep. The reflexologist asked me if I have ever had breathing problems. I said that I had, and she said that you could tell by my feet. I know that all points of our body are connected to our feet, or so does Chinese medicine believe, but I was surprised that illness could actually show just be looking at them.

As for Yoga, it was session number two. It was nearly 100% better this time. I found myself so aware of exactly how in tension I keep my muscles. It was like a fight between my body's bad habit of being tense, and my determination for it to relax. By the time I had finished I felt very good and relaxed, and my breathing was regular. I am sure that it is going to benefit my anxiety. By the way, Sharon (a girl running) asked me what kind of yoga I am doing: it is hatha yoga (the kind you found horrible), but it seems to be suiting me. As they say in Spanish "Para gustos, colores" (different colours exist to suit different tastes)

Well, here goes for the daily summary of points and exercise (I found it so hard to count up points, after not doing it in the last month or so)

Exercise:

Walking 25 minutes (2)
Yoga: 1 hour (1)

Food:

Cornflakes (2.5)
green salad with olive oil and sweet corn (2)
potatoe with edam cheese (4)
2 chocolate rice cakes (2)
5 dried toast bread pieces (4)
(2 with philadelphia) (1.5)
salad of:
2 teaspoons of light mayonaise (1)
1 small tin of tuna (2)
1 tin of sweetcorn (3)

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22
-3

19 points of 22 points allowed

In my point book it says that 1 hour of yoga is 4 points, but I only put 1, because it was so passive that I can't imagine it meant the yoga I do. By the way, I took my chocolate covered rice-cakes with me, and had them straight after the gym. I think if I do this in future I will able to curve that uncontrolable hunger that overtakes me after stepping out of the gym.

So tomorrow I vow to be active and count points as today. (and to blog it all). Keep up your diets you diet bloggers out there! I will be back... same Fat time, same Fat channel

P.S. There was a different post yesterday called blueroses. Somehow I must have deleted it. Don't know if anyone got to see it. Oh well ...

P.P.S. I have changed my goals. Please have a look at them.

yours, Eli

Hungry

2005-07-20T16:10:00.000-07:00

I have to find a solution to feeling sooo hungry after the gym. Today after working out on the exercise machines, and then doing yoga, I came out feeling great, relaxed, and starving! My gym is located in a big shopping centre, so I went staight to McDonalds and had a happy meal. Then I bought popcorn from the cinema and chocolate to eat whilst watching The Godfather part 2. I know it was wrong but it tasted sooo good. I was feeling thinner today, so it was a terrible way to spoil that feeling. If it was just a one-off, there would not be problem. It is every-bloody-day after going to the gym... So tomorrow I am going back to point counting, and religiously putting points back on the blog. I will prepare something within my points to eat straight after the gym to take away the edge of my appetite. An apple, as Loretta suggested, would not work for me in those moments. I have to save some subtancial points for this moment, and I need carbs, so I will have to have a sandwich of some sort. So from tomorrow, points on the blog, and planned snacks to take to the gym.

By the way, do you like my blue blog? I was sick of pink, and found blue more relaxing.

So, see you tomorrow, same Fat time, same Fat channel

Eli

P.S. Yoga was good, but I am so out of shape and unflexible. The teacher said give it a month before I contemplate that Yoga is not for me. Sigh, I think I will listen to her, but it is dreadful feeling and looking so unfit amongst all those over- 50 years old- flexy-people. I suppose I will get there (or break something) in the end

Me and my Gym

2005-07-19T16:28:00.000-07:00

From here, even though I said it in her blog: Congratulations!! Loretta!!!!! She has finally tied the knot!!!!! And thank you Jovette for your interest in my gym. I hope you enjoy this post, sorry that it wasn't done sooner!

So, here it goes...

I went for the first time on Monday the 11th. That day I went on an elliptical machine. I also went on an exercise bike, and then on another exercise bike where I sat more near the ground and had to peddle infront of me (I found this very comfortable). The latter was not only very comfy, but was also placed infront of the main exercise class, which has huge glass windows so I could see the different classes going on. From this position I saw fitball. People were whaleing about on the floor with big blue balls on top of them. I don't know, I thought I would be more fun, but it looked more like hardwork than anything. But I am yet to try it. Then I met my personal trainer. He told me that the best thing for losing weight were the exercise machines and the classes. He also gave me a series of exercise to do on the weight machines, but said that I would not visually see the benefit until I got rid of the fat. I said that I would stick to the two former mentioned, and see him in a couple of weeks. On the next couple of days I tried two different step classes, one was just called step, and the other was latin step. What changed was the types of movements made and the music, the former being disco music, the latter being classical music (just kidding, it was latin music!). My favourite was a kick box class. I loved on the kicking and punching the bag. However, I am not the greatest at remembering choreography sequences, so I do get lost, next to the fact that I am unfit and the rest have been doing these classes for at lot longer than me, but heh, I sweat, and I enjoy it, so great!. I still have many classes to try. Tomorrow I want to have a go at step tonic, and yoga. Then of course the machines are great, and I love how you plug in the head-phones and watch the tv. It really takes my mind of the strain of the exercise.

Do you remember I said I wanted to leave the gym until I reached under 80kg? Jovette said why wait, and that it would help to lose ect. Well, now I remember the reason. Before I started on the ww diet, I went to a doctor that put me on a sort of Atkins diet. He told me to wait to do the gym as I would get hungry and eat a lot. Well, this man was a disaster for me, but that thing he said was true. I am sooooo hungry. I found it so much more easier to not eat before going to the gym. Now I am just eating like mad. But anyway, I am sure I will adjust soon. I think going in the morning will help me, rather than going in the evening and then wanting to eat late at night.

I will try to post soon, still no news about the wedding. And I am very very broody (more than usuall) I want a babyyy

Same Fat time, same Fat channel

Eli

Even more lighter

2005-07-10T12:24:00.000-07:00

Hi

Had a very good diet week, and I have lost nearly 2 kilos! So now I am 84.3. I have also just joined a gym, but I haven't actually gone yet, so when I do I will write a long post about it. What I can say is that it is huuuggee. I has a great timestable during the summer (the same or better during the rest of the year) that is 6 am to 12 pm from Monday to Friday, and 10 am to 10 pm during the weekend. It has exercise machines with televisions, and you plug in head-phones to listen to it. Big rooms where 50 different types of workout programmes go on. Loads of machines for toning and building muscle and I have an appointment with my personal trainer on Monday. So, it all sounds very promising. Now all I have to do is get my bum down there and get sweating.

By the way, no news on the wedding

Take care all, be good

More new of Eli and her diet at the ...... Same Fat time, same Fat channel

A bit lighter

2005-07-06T15:23:00.000-07:00

First of all, thanks for everyone's comments and support. My boyfriend always said the same as neb okla, who is anyone to give us permission to get married? He has the same ilusion as I do, but he always says that he already feels married to me. I mean we share our life, live together ect. And thanks for jovette's good intention of beating the pulp of that attorney, if we did know who he was I think my boyfriend would have got him first :) As for what Loretta asks, it seems that here in Spain, when you have a civil wedding, you hand in your papers, and they are inspected by the ministry (this is done by an attorney). He was the one that sent back the papers with this remark (but with no explanation) to the judjge, and who told us. Well, we now have legal insurance, and we have been told that at this stage we cannot do anything. We have to wait to see what the ministry replies, and should they still say the same, then we can take them to court. But we cannot demmand apologies, or sue them, or anything like that (sucks hey?). Our lawyer could not understand it either, so it still remains a mystery. Let's see what happens.

And well... on Monday I went to weigh myself. After a month of not dieting, I feared the worst, only to find that I had lost half a kilo!!! (a bit more than a pound). I really had expected to have put on at least 4 pounds, so great! I have been keeping to my diet these days, but have not been writing it down. It is far to hot to overeat, and I have been eating veggies, fruit, rice cakes and ice lollys, and basically nothing with too many points. See if I write down the damn points tomorrow. I did do those goals I wrote down on Monday except go to see the gym. Tomorrow I will! promise! It has just been so damn hot, I can't get my butt moving.

And Madrid lost for being the town for the olympics. I must admit that I didn't want us to win, I don't think we have the capacity, and Madrid is already kaos, let alone if it is packed with turists. So anyway, see if I get some pics this week, and next Monday weigh in. I would like to be 85. something then. I have new goals, I will talk about them in my next post.

Take care all

Eli

Holiday begins / P

2005-07-03T15:14:00.000-07:00

I have finished at school, and two whole months loom ahead of me. As I told you all, this Friday I was supposed to know about my wedding. I mean, we thought that they were asking us to go there to tell us about the date. We were wrong. We were asked to go in separetly, me first. I sat there in front of a judge and his secretary, and I was told that the attorney thought that our marriage was one of convenience. I was very shocked and upset, but hardly said much of what I think now as I was basically speechless. I managed to ask what was the convenience (I mean, we both have a Spanish nationality, neither of us have money) but the judge said he didn't know, that this was stated by the attorney. He said that maybe it was our age difference (I am 7 years older than my boyfriend, I am 29, he is 22), but he didn't seem to understand it himself. The judge seemed to take it as one big joke, and I was more then offended. He asked me questions, and I answered them. Then the same with my boyfriend. We left the building in silence. We didn't really know what to say to eachother. We had both been waiting for this day to start planning the wedding, so we both felt cheated, humiliated, upset, disappointed. I know a few days have passed but I still am quite speachless. We were told that what we have said will go back to the attorney, and then we would hear from them. I mean, even if they turn round and say: we made a mistake, you can get married now, they can't take away the bad feeling created. I would be very surprised if we get an apology. They don't have any grounds, whatsoever, to say what they did. Tomorrow we are going to seek legal advice.

The diet has not been happening. I was going to go to the gym tomorrow, but I have just started my period. But anyway, I want to go and check it out, and the price, what it has to offer ect. I mean, my boyfriend is going to work, so the worst thing I can do is just stay at home. I also have my driver license to study for.

I have got to get myself weighed, I am totally in the dark about my current weight. That would be the first step to getting down to my diet.

These are my goals for tomorrow:

- Go to the bank

- Weigh myself at the chemest

- Go and look at the gym

- Go for a walk

- Count points (even if I don't keep to them)

- Study for my driving license

So... I hope to post now more regulary now I am on holiday

Kisses all round

Eli

Hard to be Hungry

2005-06-25T14:13:00.000-07:00

For the first time in what seems ages I have gone hungry. I mean, my body had pleanty to go on, I just ate within points, but my belly really did feel that my throat had been cut. I kept myself busy today, with the normal household affairs I don't have time for during the week. I kept myself busy so not to think too much about feeling hungry. Boy is it hard to not eat when you feel like it! Now I don't feel hungry. I have heard that that happens (hunger ceasing) when you tuck in to your own fat, so bonapetit body of mine, get gnaring on that lard!

I talked to a friend from work that has just had a baby. I could hear him in the background. I am soo broody. I keep having dreams that I am pregnant. They are such nice dreams as I feel this lovely glow in my tummy, and the feeling of being pregnant is so speacial. Oh well, maybe in a years time. However much I want a baby, the thought of having one when I am so overweight makes me feel ill. Yet again the same reasons are setting in to motivate me but... why do they lose their importance sometimes? Why do I fall of the wagon? I am so motivated at the moment, how can I keep this feeling up?

love

Eli

Been absent

2005-06-25T03:16:00.000-07:00

Yes, I haven't been around. I haven't been on my diet... no good news there.

The other day I went shopping with a friend. Seeing my reflection in big mirrors was really terrible. I was quite traumatized. I just could not believe how fat I have became in the past two years. That was just what I needed to put me back on track. I haven't been really on track for a couple of months now. I have stopped taking walks and doing exercise. I don't know how much a weigh, but I will have to find that out, that will probably put me more back on track that anything. Next Friday I should be given the date for my wedding... Yes, I do feel motivated again.

I am just about to start my 2 months holiday. Apart from studying for my driving test, I am going to join a gym. I think I know which: a nice big one with loads going on, I will give more details when I go to have a tour. So starting to count points, do exercise, from TODAY

wish me luck (again)

Eli

Sunday: Feeling Better

2005-06-12T03:08:00.000-07:00

Well, after 11 days of being sick, I think I am back to normal. So now is the time to get back on my diet, do my exercise, drink my water etc. I have not weighed myself but I feel thinner, I will probably wait until next Saturday to see. Next weekend I will probably take some more body photos, to see if there is any difference. I will have finished at school soon, and the swimming pool that we share with the other flats will be open, so I hopefully will get some exercise there. Also I want to start at a gym, but I had the idea that I wanted to be under 80 kilos before I did so, so I had better get down to it. Still no news about the wedding.

take care

Eli

Thursday

2005-06-09T04:25:00.000-07:00

I am still the same, still ill. So not much to report, I haven't counted points because I have not been eating a great deal, and what I do eat doesn't last long enough in my body. I feel very weak. As I said, 70% of 2000 have been affected, they don't know what has caused it, all they do know that it was not the food or water, as they say it is an unknown virus. Oh well, so good thing is that I have lost some weight, but I feel shit. Take care all
Eli

Stage 2: Week 1: Sunday

2005-06-05T01:18:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone

I am still bad with my tummy. As I said below, on Wednesday I started to feel ill as I got food-poisoned at school . I have had 4 days of not eating hardly anything and bigtime evacuation of anything I did eat. I must admit that I ate a bar of chocolate thinking:

A: That chocolate is supposed to stop diarrhea
B: If it didn't stop it, I couldn't get fat
C: I needed comforting.

But it wasn't a good idea, My stomach got worse if anything. I must admit that I don't feel that thin, I feel bloated. AND I started my period yesterday. So I didn't weigh myself on Saturday, it didn't seem the right time.

And thank god my period did come. I am not taking the pill anymore, and I am never a 100% sure of condoms. The thing is I can NOT get pregnant while I am still take the antidepressants, the baby could be harmed... So I nearly went and got myself one of those pregnancy tests. Even though I can't have a baby at the moment I know a part of me was still feeling secretly happy by the possibility of being pregnant. Oh well, hopefully in a year time...

Last but not least I am expected to go today to my parents in law's dinner for their 25th wedding anniversary. I don't know what I will eat. The problem is that most of the time I do get hungry, so having lovely food infront of me might tempt myself to eat, even though 10 minutes later I am punished and have to run to the toilet. My love for food has no limit. Yesterday I went to the cinema with my boyfriend. He spent all day saying that I was not to have crap (popcorn), and I meekly agreed. However, when the time came, and I was standing in the cinema lobby, with smells of popcorn tickling my nostrils I said I wanted some. He gave me a furious pinch, and said to think with my head and not with my stomach. That actually gave me food for thought (never better said) as if I could generally think with my head (and not stomach) I would successfully achieve my goal weight. Oh well... I never got the popcorn.

Take care all, same Fat time, same Fat channel

Eli

Stage 2: Week 1, Thursday

2005-06-02T03:16:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone

Thanks for welcoming me back! Guess how many points I am having today?... 0

Why? Well, as you know I work in a school, and we have all been affected with gastrointeritis. You could not imagine in your worst nightmares what it was like to be around kids vomitting and pooing all over the place. So... I have not been into work today, and went to the doctors, who said I was to only have fluids today, and go gradual tomorrow with some boiled rice and sliced ham. Actually now I think of it I am supposed to drink aquarius to put back whatever I am losing, and that must have some points... but I can live with that. I drank all my water, and ate just over my points, and the week has been going generally well, I am certainly back into diet mode. And of course, I am secretly hoping that my bad tummy will shift some quick fat. I don't feel thinner after all my evacuations, I actually feel really bloated, like I am 6 months pregnant... However, I will probably wake up tomorrow morning looking and feeling thinner. I have also been drinking all my water (yeah!) But I will give it a rest today, as I don't want to overdo my body with too much liquids (and water does not but back in my body those essential minerals etc that I am lacking now)... So I am weighing on Saturday, see how much damage I have done in the past weeks, and see if this week back on the wagon has made it better.

Kisses to everyone, and remember...

same Fat time, same Fat channel

I am starting again: Week 1

2005-05-31T12:04:00.000-07:00

Hi

As you can all see I have hardly been posting. I have not been following the diet, and I have not felt motivated towards losing weight...

... It took a lot of willpower to get back into it, to start the first day to write down my points. The second day (today) has been a little easier, and I didn't only manage to write down all my points, but I actually managed not to go over. Another thing I have done these two days is drink all my water (a thing that I never quite managed in the past)...

... what has put me back on track? Well, I can of course feel the weight slowly coming back. I have not weighed myself, but I know... I can feel it. And the worst for me is not seeing that clothes don't look so great, or that my stomach is looking more bulgy... its my general condition. My eyes don't seem bright, my hair looks a mess, my skin... Even though I had not lost all my weight at 86.8 Kilos, my general condition had improved so much. So that is what has really made me pull my socks up, just the fact that I think I look awful. I want to take care of myself, and look good, day to day. That is so important to me, even more that the end result of looking thin. So that is a another reason why I am drinking all that water... it is great for my skin. I have all my points written down, and tomorrow I will post them. I feel sooooo tired now. All my willpower has been used, and the idea of copying my points is too much. So see if I read up about you all, hope you are all well, take care, be good

Eli

Week 15: The Beginning

2005-05-16T07:36:00.000-07:00

Hi

Sorry all, and thank you so much for missing me Loretta. I have not even posted on week 14. I have been just oh so lazy! The diet has not really been happening, and there has been a couple of days of binging. I have not weighed myself, and I refuse to do so before this Saturday morning, but I feel heavier. Also, I have got out of the custom of doing exercise. Where did those daily walks go?

Anyway, summer is even nearer than before, as the wedding is, even if we haven't been given a date yet, but it is of course going to be pretty soon (next couple of months). So not good at all.

What I would like to do, is have a really good week, get back into exercise, and then weigh on Saturday to see if I could have at least go rid of the damage done up until now (or some of the damage).

Anxiety has not been good lately. However, I am quite happy at how I am dealing with it. The main problem on the long run is my atitude towards these attacks. If is a bad attitude, the attacks pesist and I fall into a spiral of being scared of having attacks and having attacks because I am scared. So, yes, my attitude is better and that is good. However, it is hard! If I got back into my meditation yoga taichi walks and healthier lifestyle in general, I would help myself no end. Also, with the diet, and with having some attacks, I think I should go on a general vitamin course.

So, It would be great if I could post daily. I have to read all you guys and get up to date. Take care, and be good (better than me last week anyway)

Eli

Same Fat time, same Fat channel

Week 13: Wednesday

2005-05-04T11:37:00.000-07:00

(This is where I go in my mind to meditate)

Hi folks!

So I am down a stone. Not bad. I have been keeping to my diet at the weekend, but I have only kept a mental count of the points. Not good, as that way I could slip, but I was well under anyway. I don't seem to be as hungry anymore, which is good. So today I kept count of points, here it goes

bar (1.5)
salad (0)
veg (0.5)
rice (4)
yog (0.5)
banana (1.5)
apple (0)
bar (1.5)
4 rounds of toasties (8)
2 dried toast thiings with philadelphia (2)

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18.5 points

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Exercise: 0 (At least at the moment)

water 1 litre, I hope to drink at least another half of litre before going bed

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total: 18.5 points of the 22 allowed

So, today I went back to work. In Spain we had a bank holiday on Monday, and in Madrid we had a bank holiday on Tuesday. So I had 4 days counting the weekend, so it was pretty hard going back on a Wednesday. Many people are starting to say that you can tell that I have lost weight, so that is great, the first stone is showing. I am half a sleep at the moment. Anyway, hope everyone is getting on with their diet. Here in Madrid it is very hot, and summer always makes me feel really conscious of being overweight. So that is extra incentive

So be good everyone, same Fat time, same Fat channel

Eli

Week 12: Weigh in

2005-04-30T11:44:00.000-07:00

well, as you can see I have not been posting, and my diet has not been going to great either. However, I weighed myself today at the chemist, and I have lost 3 pounds (nearly 2 kilos). So great! It seems that even if my diet is a bit halfhearted I am still losing... it must be that water that I am getting in the habbit of drinking. So, I really must get back on track, because I am sure that if I continue the way I am going, I will not lose weight, but put it on.

So, but for a 100 grams, I have reached my first stone. So yeah! I am happy. See if I can really get into my diet, get at the lower end of my points, exercise, water etc, and be less than 80 for July the 1st. That is my goal. And 6 kilos in 2 months, is quite a realistic goal if I stick to it, so... wish my luck.

Today's points (Saturday 30th of May)

yoghurt (1.5)
two cheese toasties (3)
cabbage (0)
bread (2)
lentils (5)
yoghurt (1.5)

______________________________

13 points

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walking 20 minutes (1 point)

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12 points of 22 allowed allowed

Not very good, I should have eaten at least 18, but for one day it won't matter.

Be good all

Eli

Eli

Week 11: Satuday

2005-04-23T03:37:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone

Again Loretta, I coincide with you. I have had chronic sinusitis all my life. I have an alergy at this moment connected with my sinusitis, plus a very sore throat and snot. So yep, I am not well

I am drink quite a lot of water, not just because of my diet, but also because it is good to clear my system of all the flem.

I tried to keep to points on Friday. They were the following:

bars 2 (3)
salad (0)
rice (5)
small fish thing in batter (2.5)
apple (0)
cheese toasties (8)
bread (2)
bar (1.5)

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total (because no bonus points). 22 points of 22 allowed

I mean it is not great but I have kept to my points. And I am counting them, see if I can get the habbit of counting points even when I am not doing well. I mean, if I did this I could compensate throughout the week.

Wish me luck...it is hard when you are not feeling well, isn't it¿

Eli

Week 11: Friday

2005-04-22T01:33:00.000-07:00

Responding to Loretta, I have been of the wagon as well (again, yes). After 3 days of being back on track, I have slipped and bumped back on the road of non dieting. I must say, no mayor binge, but easily eating more than I should, and I also tend to not count points when I know that I am going to eat more than I am allowed. I am sure that this it not good, that I should post whatever. I suppose it is denial. Anyway... today is Friday, so I am going to try to count points, and I am sipping my water at this moment. See if I can climb back on the diet wagon and carry on along that road towards a body that I am proud of.

Take care all, be good.

Eli

Week 11: The beginning...

2005-04-19T03:16:00.000-07:00

Well, first of all, let's talk about Sunday...

I kept within points, but only by eating some of my bonus points. So, I obviously I did do some exercise (30 minutes walking very fastly), but I did not drink my water (when do I?) This has to change. Firstly, if I am going to shift a significant amount of weight before the wedding I need to be more at the 18 side of my points, than the 22 end). Secondly, I should be drinking that bloody water.

So on Sunday I ate the following:

3 rice cakes (1.5)
1 yoghurt (1.5)
2 rounds of toast with cheese (3.5)
cabbage (0)
a smal portion of lasaña (5)
bread (1.5)
bar (1.5)
3 rounds of toast with cheese (5.5)
7 rice cakes (3.5)

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23.5 points

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bonus points: (30 minutes walking fast): - 2 points

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21.5 points of 22 allowed

And then Monday, that is yesterday. Well, that has been a bad day. After 3 days on the wagon, I slightly fell of. Why? Well, it was a friend's birthday. She bought in to work a box of chocolates and I had 3. Okay, you can count them, and I did, but then I did not deprive myself at lunch. And I also had a sausage sandwich when I arrived home. So I did not count my points either, but I can more or less guess that I must have ate about 30 points. (And no exercise, and of course no water) So... today Tuesday has to be a great deal better... so to make up for yesterday. I am of course still ill, two weeks now I have been with this damn cold. Now my boyfriend has it and needed loads of pampering. Then I algo spent 3 hours on top of work, looking after my friend's toddler. So, yesterday was a difficult day, but, I know... there is no excuse.

Today will be my best day! promise, food, exercise, water, the works!

Same fat time, same fat channel

and P.s

Thanks to you all for missing me. It really encourages me to keep posting and keeping to it.

be good!

Eli

Week 10: Sunday

2005-04-17T01:53:00.000-07:00

Okay, I am happy, because I am posting daily, keeping to my points, and I even earned some bonus points, so yeah! way to go! I will keep it up. I am back... on the wagon.

So, I finally had my WEIGH IN!!!!!! tachán...... what do I weigh?....... please look at yesterday's post about period, no-diet, pringles!!! ....... well, I stepped on the scales. Remember that the scales are professional scales in a Chemist. I press the start button and I receive a little electric shock! Was it the way of the scale of punishing me for not dieting, for not coming to see him? Well, I continue with the process... only to find that, I weigh EXACTLY the same. ha ha. So very thoughtful of Mr Scale, as this way I won't have to change the template of my blog... So yeah, I am happy, as I was scared of having put on weight! All my hard work has not been spoilt by nearly 2 weeks of non dieting, and a binge. I can take my diet where I left it, and carry on.

So, on Saturday I kept to points, and exercised. The only thing I did not do was the water. So this morning I got up and drank two glasses of water before anything else. Here goes yesterday's points

Special K: (2.5)
3 bars (4.5)
lentils (4)
bread (3)
yogurt (1.5)
rice cakes (3)
mandarine (0)

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18.5 points

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bonus points: 4 (walking 45 minutes, most of the time fast)

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14.5 points of 22 allowed

So, with two days of diet behind me and no extra weight, I feel strong today. I am going to be within points, drink ALL that water, and earn bonus points. Take care all, I will report tomorrow.

Week 10: Saturday

2005-04-15T23:58:00.000-07:00

Hi, I am back.

Thanks for missing me Loretta. Just for you I am going to post daily again. The reason I have not, is just because I have not been following the diet, and I have been ill. I am not that great yet, however, I have managed to have my period, so I think that my excuse is over for not counting points and eating chocolate (and no-one dare tell me that a period is not an excuse) ... okay, I know, I admit, there is NO excuse...

Even though I did not eat that much more than when I am on a diet, I did hardly any exercise, and I had one binge. But what a binge... I had a whole box of pringles (salt and vinager) and I then used my calculator to discover that I had scoffed 26 points!!!! And that is without counting the milka chocolate bar!

Yesterday, that is Friday the 15th of April, I wrote everything down for the first time since week 8. And, I managed to keep under points

bar (1.5)
bar (1.5)
veg (0.5)
salad of pasta (with more salad than anything else) (2)
yogurt (2)
apple (0)
2 bars (3)
4 rounds of bread with light cheese and tomato (8)

______________________________________________________

18.5

__________________________

bonus points: 0

____________________

18.5 points of 22 points allowed

So, I am starting again... and with that, I will be blogging again. I have to go and weigh myself, see if I go today, and so to see how much damage has been done to the weight lost from now. So many successful dieters have big setbacks. I have to think that is what happened to me and carry on. Wish me luck everybody.

Same Fat time, same Fat channel

Eli

Where have I been? Week 10: Monday

2005-04-11T00:21:00.000-07:00

Where have I been? Well... I have not been that well. Not only that, but I have not been following the diet (WW that is, well or no other diet). I wouldn't say that I have ate a great deal more, or really binged out, but I have not followed the diet at all. Also, I have not been doing any exercise. I also have not weighed myself since the last official weigh in (I would have to look back at the posts to know when, I think it was in March). So ...

So what now?

I don't know. Get back into track I suppose. Today I am off work. I have a temperature, and also some added anxiety, probably just from the fact that I have not gone work and I start to worry about what I would do if I was sacked, which is very silly, because you cannot get sacked from being ill, but I don't know... that is what anxiety does for you, makes you paranoic.

So from today, I am going to count my points. I will report back tonight so to let you all know that I have done so. And when I feel better I will walk over to the chemist with the scales. I could go now, but I am afraid of bringing my temperature up. Here in Madrid it is very sunny, but oh what a cold cold wind.

So anyway, I have been thinking of you all. Take care all, be good.

Eli

My goals

2005-04-03T06:24:00.000-07:00

LIST OF GOALS

Okay, goals have changed. I have finally got a date for the wedding, and its the final countdown. There are exactly 3 months left (today is 7th of January 2006) as the wedding is on the 7th of April 2006. So, I have to be realistic here. The last time I weighed myself I was 91.5 (I suspect that now I weigh a kilo or something less, but as I haven't been to the chemist to weigh myself this will remain the official starting weight) It is quite hard to lose more the 12 kilos,in 3 months (it probably wouldn't be very healthy to do so either. The WW diet claims that 1 kilo a week shows good and steady weight loss. So, my first GOAL is to weigh 70 something kilos (even if it is 79.9) by the wedding. Should I obtain that goal, I will look a lot better in my wedding frock (haven't bought it yet). And I would go on from there to my next Goal of getting to my ideal weight (65-70 kilos?) so that I can look good, and start trying for a baby. Wish my luck :)

Oh My

2005-04-02T15:18:00.000-08:00

Well, let's start from the beginning: Friday

On Friday I was within my points, well, just 0.5 over. However, I had cuscus. When I make cuscus (I don't know how everyone else in the world makes it) you add hot water and then it kind of inflates. Well, I think it continued to inflate in my stomach. I felt SO bloated. I felt so fat! I thought: there is no way I am going to weigh myself after this. So yes, Friday, I was within my points...

special K (2)
orange juice (1.5)
apple (0)
salad with potatoes (2.5)
mushrooms (0.5)
bread (1)
bar (2)
bread (1)
cuscus (12)

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22.5 points

________________________

bonus points: 0

Grand total: 22.5 (of 22 allowed)

So, I wasn't very happy yesterday. I must say that all week I have been eating at night precooked dried food, and I know that they have a lot of salt. I think that has caused a general retention of liquids. Also, Last week I just stopped taking the pill in the middle of when I should be taking it (because of anxiety). So, I know that liquids are a issue at the moment. I think that is why I have been keeping to the diet but feel that I am not losing (and I say feel, because I don't know, I haven't been to weigh myself yet).

So that was Friday, but Saturday is another story.

Today I could not even count the points. Dinner was the first brick in the wall of sin. I had coliflower and rice (quite okay), but then I had a piece of apple crumble with a sort of custard creamy sauce. (I don't know, must be about 8 to 10 points).

Then the night came... and I just lost it. I thought to myself that it was my day out, and that everyone had a day when then just slipped a little, and I did. I had a sausage sandwich, some nuts... a few other things. Anyway, I don't want or really can't count the points. I am just going to cross this day off, full stop.

I know it seems that my diet is going okay, but I haven't been happy with myself this week. I haven't done enough exercise, and I have been eating all of my points, instead of saving some. Also the quality of the food was not that good. So...

don't lose your patience with my but this is what I am going to do:

From now until Friday I am going to

- Eat healthy things

- Not eat a lot or just 0 point things after 6 O'Clock

- Save points

- Drink water

- Do exercise

Then, and only then, Friday the 8th of April 2005 I will go and weigh myself. I promise, I will!! Even if there are liquids, a period, binges, whatever I will weigh!
Oh... I am feeling a bit low, I shall have to read some blogs rightaway to give me inspiration

Take care all, and be good (or at least better than me today)

Same Fat time, Same Fat Channel

Eli

Week 8: Thursday's points and more

2005-04-01T05:38:00.000-08:00

First down to the nitty gritty: points

special K (2.5)
apple (0)
salad (0)
rice (4)
bar (2)
strawberries (0)
apple (0)
yogurt (0.5)
bar (2)
ravioli cheese (7)
bread (3.5)

__________________
21.5

Bonus points: (Does running after a 22 month baby for 5 hours count as bonus points? If is does I should have 10, but as it is not in my guide, I will put 0)

___________

grand total : 21.5 (of 22 allowed)

Well, consequently I am so so so sooooo tired today. After a long day of looking after and teaching 5 to 7 year olds, I stayed at work a further 5 hours and looked after Chrisie, my friend's daughter. But my god, isn't is just worth it. She is like a little doll. SHe must have known I was on my diet because she kept running when my back was turned and tossing a ball down a flight of stairs, and then would not make any effort to get it (I suppose that is the best anyway) and laughing as I huffed and puffed up and down the stairs to bring her back the ball. Actually she does know what stairs are and their dangers, and she has been shown by her nanny a special way to go down (a sort of a backwards crawl). So, just like Loretta it seems, I am one broody girl. I actually want to wait one year to get pregnant. By then my teaching contract will turn to fixed, instead of the one year contract I have. My boyfriend who has just started working as a computer engineer should be on decent money by then(not the shit they are giving him now), we should have saved some money and hopefully got our own place instead of renting as we are now. and I will be nice and slim and fit enough to carry my baby. So... yeah, I have to wait. It would be nice to be tall slend and thin, to be in a maternity dress, and that the only bulk to be that of my baby.

Sooooo weigh in is tonight or tomorrow, see when I get home. I don't know, even though I have been sticking to it, I don't feel that much thinner that last time (88.4), but I hope I have lost weight. But I don't think I stand a cat in hell's chance of arriving to my first stone. What do you think? Want to place a bet? Go ahead.

Take care, be good

Eli

Week 8: Wednesday's points, and other things

2005-03-31T00:53:00.000-08:00

Hi!

Thanks for the posts. Lorreta: I am sure I will not put it back to that "only bloggers can comment" option, if I get weird posts I will just delete them (or leave them and we can have a laugh). I am so glad that you told me, I had no idea about my restricted feedback.

Jovette asked me about the bars that you can see on my list, and what do I mean by bar. Well, bar is either a weightwatcher bar, or a general fitness bar. They usually have some chocolate, cereal, musli, that sort of thing, and vary from 1 to 2 points. I find them good as a filler between hours. or to have with a cup of tea.

As for Wednesday's points, here we go:

special K (2)
bar (1)
bar (2)
mandarine (0)
salad and coliflower (0.5 for the bit of oil added)
lentils (3)
strawberries (0)
bread (1)
tallerines pesto (6)
2 bread with a bit of light margerine (3)
apple (0)
bar (2)
________________________________

20.5

________

bonus points: not one bloody one
______

20.5 points (of 22 allowed)

Drank about half the water, and I didn't save as many points as I wanted, so I don't know if I will hit my goal (of losing my first stone by Saturday morning) but anyway, I am not doing badly either. I am also going through an anxious time, so I think I am doing well taking that into account. I was going to talk about this in this post, but I don't really have time. I am posting in a breaktime again, and the bell is about to go. Tonight I am staying late at school because my the friend I go in the car with has a meeting, and I am going to stay behind and look after her baby. I just go gagagaga after her little girl, who is 20 months. I think I must be the most broody women in the world. I want babys so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bell! I will post later, same fat time, same fat channel

Take care all, be really good!!!

Eli
bar

Week 8: Wednesday. Anyone can send comments now to my blog.

2005-03-30T01:00:00.000-08:00

Hi

Until Lorreta said that could I make it possible for anyone to make comments on this blog, did I know that the could not. I think I have changed an option so that everything can now send comments to my blog. If I am wrong let me know so that I can try to change it again.

As for Yesterday, Tuesday's points:

Special K (2)
mandarine (0)
bar (2)
banana and yogurt (4)
pasta and bread (7)
salad (0)
apple (0)
bar (2)
mandarine (0)
bread X 3 (3)
bar (2)

______________

22 points

- 1 b0nus point for walking

_____________

21 points (of 22 allowed)

I drank quite a lot of water, but not enough, and I didn't save the points I wanted to. But I suppose it was not a bad day. First day back at work. My children are 5 to 7 in age, and they are very loving and cute, so it is nice to get hugs from them and to see that they are really glad to see you. And I went to the doctors about my anxiety. I will tell you all about that in my post tonight because I have to go to class now (the bell has just gone)

So take care all, be good, same fat channel, same fat time

Eli

Week 8: Monday

2005-03-28T11:43:00.000-08:00

This is the last day of my holiday. So back to work. Somehow it is even easy to keep to my routine when I have work, too much to do to be thinking about eating.

Today a package from weightwatchers arrived. It contained the following: a calculator, 5 boxes of caramel-chocolate bar (2 points each) a recipie book, and a teflon to put in the fryingpan.

I just love being able to calculate the points food have. It is just so cool! I am like a kid with a new toy haha

Anyway, here for today's points

2 bread with suace (2.5)
tallerines (6)
poached egg (2)
2 toasts (2.5)
bar (2)
bar (1)
mandarine (0)
bread X 3 (3)
special K (2)
low fat cheese and sace (1)
_____________________________

22

-1 bonus point for walking

______

21points (of 22 allowed)

I only have 2 glasses to go to get to my water aim, so not bad at all (I will drink them after I leave the computer and go for my shower). I could have done more exercise, and I would have liked to eat only 18 points. See if I can do so now I am starting work.

So, take care, all, be good

and remember... same Fat time, same Fat channel

Week 7: Sunday. When to weigh, goals, points

2005-03-27T11:57:00.000-08:00

Well, with this week 7 comes to an end. You may have noticed that I don't have a weighing at the end of the week, but befor e the weekend. Why? Well, basically because I am better at my diet during the week. So I feel like I deserve to know what I weigh after my hard work. If you slip a bit on the weekend, the weight on Monday might be slightly up (and can depress me), and anyway, if it was just a one slip, the weight would even out by Wednesday anyway. So yeah! Viva Friday weighings! Talking of all this, you may also have noticed that this Friday I did not have a weighing. That is because I was waiting two Fridays, to see if I could reach my first main goal: my first Stone! (6.2 or 6.6 kilos??)

Today has been a good day. I have kept to my points, done an hour walk, AND drank all my water (yes me, the one that never manages to drink more than a couple of glasses) So yeah, I am happy. I must admit I have some hormonal/anxiety problems at the moment, but nevertheless, I am still keeping great to my diet, actually my diet is something that cheers me up, and gives me a reason to keep cheerful :)

Anyway, I rather hoped someone would have looked at my posts: reasons for dieting and my life as I added pics, but no-one has :_( But hey ho, not to worry, I hope some people read but just don't comment. I get so happy when I get a comment. Is that sad? I don't know, but that is how I feel haha

Anyway here goes today's points:

special K (2)
cabagge (2)
fresh potatoe pure (3)
bread (1)
bar (2)
1 toastie (2)
bread (1)
cheese pasta (6)
bar (2)
2 bread (2)
mandarine (0)
_____________

22 points

- 5 points for walking fast 1 hour

17 points (allowed 22)

So see how tomorrow presents itself. Just 5 days left for that next weighing so I was to get down to it hard. Tomorrow is the last day of my holiday. On Tuesday I go back school. So... more tomorrow, same fat time, same fat channel

Eli

Torrijas

2005-03-27T07:26:00.000-08:00

I just thought I take a mo to show you a bit of Spanish eating culture.

At Easter, we have a traditional dessert. They are called torrijas

They are a sort of bread in batter, covered in sugar. How many points? I don't know. In Spain Weightwatchers don't give you the slidey thing. However, I have ordered a WW calculator, so maybe soon I will be able to calculate points of things that are not in my book. Now for the recipe:

1 bread baguette
1 litre of milk
some cinnamon
some sugar to sprinkle
2 eggs
a bit of lemon skin
olive oil

So to start of you heat the milk with the cinnamon and the lemon skin in. Do this for about 5 to 10 minutes. Then cut the bread in slices. Dip the bread in the milk until it is nice and wet. Then put them in the plate where you would have whipped the egg previously. Then fry them in olive oil until they go a nice goldy colour. Then take them out, and serve them covered in sugar. And voilá, there you have a fatty Spanish Easter dish. (I didn't have any this year, so I thought I would fatten the rest of you up)

Same Fat time, same Fat channel

Eli

Week 7: Saturday

2005-03-26T16:13:00.000-08:00

Before I start, let my just say that I have added some photos to the sections my life, and reasons for losing weight. Have a look and see what you think

As for my diet, here goes points:

cereales (2)
chocolate (10)
pasta (6)
yogurt (1)
mandarine (0)
apple (0)
bread (2)
cabbage (0)
cheese (2)
____________________

23

exercise: intense 30 minutes walking fast: - 3 points

20 points (22 allowed)

Well, I ended up drinking more than half the water, and eating 1 of my exercise points. I actually wanted to save 4 eating points. Tomorrow I will do it. Yeah!
Same fat time, same fat channel.

Eli

Wedding bells

2005-03-26T05:39:00.000-08:00

Well, quite a lot of my new diet friends seemed to be motivated or have been motivated at some time because of a wedding. I have just found this book that made me laugh!

These are the reviews:

Customer Reviews

This book is motivating for any bride-to-be as it provides practical tips and realistic goals for weightloss. However, don't be fooled by the title...it does not provide an actual diet. Basically the book just inspires you to eat anything with moderation and to exercise. That is something experts have been recommending for decades. In essence, nothing new is established. You're better off buying a bride magazine.

Authors Robyn Flipse and Jacqueline Shannon have written a book that's loaded with great information for brides-to-be and others interesting in shedding some pounds on a deadline in a sensible way. I bought "The Wedding Dress Diet" for a bride-to-be who wanted to lose "exctly 18 pounds to get down to my fighting weight of 112." She read the book, loved it, and reported yesterday she was right on schedule to attain her goal. Now, here's the surprise: before giving my friend her gift, I read it myself. I started flipping some pages in the bookstore to get a sampling, and soon got hooked. When I got home, I read the whole darn thing. It's brilliantly organized, very well written and liberally sprinkled with humor. The nutritional and exercise tips and the advice on reducing stress can be used by men as well as women -- whether or not they're headed for the altar. Here's a handful of rice tossed in the direction of Flipse and Shannon

And where to get it?

http://fictionbooksales.com/0385499019.html?review=true#review

Thought I'd share that with you all, I will post later about my diet and me me me. Same fat time, same fat channel

Eli

Easter

2005-03-25T02:51:00.000-08:00

After having seen in Angel's blog what not to eat at Easter, I thought I would just share with everyone what I would eat at Easter. For just 2.5 points, a kinder egg. However, I don't think the image is very adequate.

Nops, better not. I have no idea how many points one of those cadbury eggs have, I remember having one in England, and it was too yummy to be just 2.5 points. However, I suppose it is better than a big egg. Anyway, here is my second attempt to put a kinder egg

So take Eli's advice. Just have one of these. And then play with the toy!! haha (okay forget the toy bit) Happy Easter

Take care, Eli

My Photos

2005-03-24T12:01:00.000-08:00













The above photos are my more recent photos (January 2006). I am quite shocked. I look so much fatter than the last photos (below) took in March 2005, and there I was only a couple of kilos lighter. Goes to show how good even a bit of weight loss can make you look. Well, I am glad I have had these taken, a good dose of reality, I am going to keep putting up photos say every 2 weeks


March 2005 88.4 kilos

Here are my first pictures. I must admit I seem to look slimmer from the front than from the side. However, this is what there is. Hopefully, in a month time the photos that I add will show a great difference. Take care all, be good, Eli. Same fat time, same fat channel

My life

2005-03-24T06:03:00.000-08:00

Well, here goes a minibiography of my life.

I was born in England.

As a child I had a lot of puppy fat and was very teased about it. Well, tease is not the right word, more like bigtime bullying. As a teenager I moved with my parents to Spain, and I lost most of my weight. I was also growing up tall, so I ended up having a long legged figure, envied by many. But my insecurities were always there. My mum had always been a comfort eater, and I think I picked up on her habits. At the time I didn't use to put on weight. But come the mid twenties, it quickly piled on, probably helped by the fact I had to take medication for depression and the anticontraceptive pill. All of a sudden I had put on 25 kilos. Now, at the age of 28,I am engaged to a lovely man, I work as a school teacher in Madrid, and for myself, and for him, I would love to be thin again. So this is my journey. Wish me luck and willpower.

Week 7: Wednesday Night. Disaster.

2005-03-23T13:29:00.000-08:00

Well, as you know if you have read the post below, I was going to go to see my parents with my boyfriend. What I have never mentioned is that I suffer from panic attacks, very closely related to travelling. The thing is, that I have not been able to manage it. I am very very very upset, and after much crying and medication I have calmed down a bit, but still very heavly depressed. That led to some comfort eating, just to top it up. I had these dried toast things spread with butter (light). I must have had about 10, so I know I am well over points.

Anyway, I am not sure how I am going to cope with the anxiety problem, that has got a lot worse in this last week. I shall go to the doctor and see what he says. The only thing that keeps me going is my diet. Tomorrow I start, and I am going to do the best that I can possibly do until Friday of the week after. By then I am going to have lost a total of 6 kilos and a bit, which is my first stone. (that is, in these 9 days) I will lose 2 kilos. I know I can do it. I need this boost of confidence, and taking my mind of negative things and focusing on a great postive thing: that is my weight loss.

Wish my luck folks, because I am very very down

Eli

Week 7: Tuesday and Wednesday

2005-03-23T07:00:00.000-08:00

Hi!

Well yesterday I was not very well. However I did manage to keep to my points. I did a small walk, but the water was a drip. As for today (Wednesday), I had a very light lunch of boiled fish and cabbage, and as now is 4 p.m, and I have only used 7 points, I think today will be a good day. Tonight we set of to my parent's house. We go on a night train, and it takes us around 8 hours, but it is okay as we mainly sleep (we have a private cabin, very romantic :D ) So, Let's see how those two days are. My plan is that I am going to have a bit more than usual at lunch, as my mum always cooks yummy things, and then have a lite lunch, and try to do plenty walking. I mean, it is only two days. My weekly weighing will be put off to the friday after this one, to give me a chance to get over the minibreak, and get to my goal of losing my first stone. I am determined.

So, I presume that there will not be a post until Saturday, which is when we get back, unless I connect from my parent's computer, but that is not very likely.
So, see you then, take care, and be good!

Eli

Week 7: Monday Night

2005-03-21T14:50:00.000-08:00

As I have said below, the day did not start that well. Haven eaten all my points by 2 pm, I had nothing to go on. However, I am quite please how I coped with the situation. I had fruit, some 0 point soup, and a couple of rice cakes with low fat cheese, so even that I did go over my points just a tad, I did not binge out. And I was also forced to eat things that are better for me like the veg soup and fruit. But wow I am hungry!!! It just goes to show what happens if you eat all your points quickly and on the wrong food!.

Water (not enough) Exercise (just a quick walk, not enough either). But hey, I feel that I coped well with a bad day.

points:
Special K (2)
hot dogs(12)
bread(4)
2 diet bars (4)
2 yogurts natural (1)
3 rice cakes with low fat cheese (2)
mandarine (0)
soup (0)
piece of bread (1)
apple (0)

_________________________
24
-0.5 (walking)

23.5 (points allowed 22)

Yep, I am in the red, they are coming right of tomorrows points.

On Wednesday, my boyfriend and I are going to my parent's house to spend a couple of days. My mum said that she has stocked up on healthy food that is easy to count the points, so see if I am good. I must admit that not being good for just 2 days would no be the end of the world... but time is ticking on. It will soon my April, and the wedding might be in July, that is not that long to lose 20 kilos. I mean, losing 4 kilos a month, that is 4 months to lose 18. so... April, May, June, July... very tight, I wonder if I could lose 6 kilos a month? Not cutting out food, just probably exercising a lot! Some people on WW do lose nearly a stone (6.6 kilos) a month. Maybe I can. At the moment I still have 2 kilos to go for my first stone, and I have been on it for 6 weeks, but it has not been a perfect 6 weeks. Hum, my goal is to have got to my first stone by next Monday. Hey! My first goal! (mini goals: to exercise plenty, to save 4 points, and to drink WATER), Wanna see if I can keep my word, do the job, cut the mustard? Find out next Monday, same Fat time, same Fat channel.

p.s (two hours later) I am no longer hungry and I haven't eaten a thing. It's funny how your body goes through stages. Haven't you ever gone bed really really hungry, and thought that when you get up you will have a huge breakfast. And then when morning comes, you are not hungry, or just normal, and you have a wee breaky? hum strange, where does hunger go to?

Week 7: Lazy holidays.

2005-03-21T06:03:00.000-08:00

Well, not the best way to start week 7. I am on holiday (my boyfriend is not), so I got up really late. Lazied around surfing on the net, had some special K, then went back to bed! (I am a bedaholic) Got up really really hungry, discovered that there was not anything worth eating in the fridge, and quickly made myself minisausage sandwiches. I mentally thought of the points as I was preparing them, and adding the two diet bar I had as I was waiting for the sausages, I have already eaten my 22 points!! (Remember it is 2pm) So it is nothing but fruit and 0 point soups for me! (and serves me right).

I was supposed to be doing some errands (haven't done any), and I would like to have done some positive things round the house (nada de nada) plus some exercise (0). So can I turn this day around? Well, some of the errands can be done. I am going to talk about errand number one, even though I am in selfdenial and I can't even mention it in general everyday conversation: - I am studying for my driving test. Well, I have said it. The thing is that the studying part is not happening, I have just been too tired with work, and then too wrapped up with my diet. My boyfriend keeps saying: I told you so, I told you so (he though I should have waited to do the test). Now it has got a bit late, and I should be due to do the test very soon. The main thing I should be doing are tests. I am going to post howmany I do a day.

If I could get off my fat but and exercise! wouldn't that be something. I manage quite okay when I am at work or weekends, but being on holiday seems to be a killer. Then the end of the holiday will come and I will be mad at myself for not having used my time in positive things. What I would really love to do is go to the swimming baths. I love swimming, but have never been since I live in Madrid.

So, will I make the day better? You will know later, same Bat time, same Bat channel

Week 6: Weekend

2005-03-20T12:49:00.001-08:00

With this weekend, week 6 ends. And I suppose a loss of 10 pounds is not a bad way to start week 7, but I know I can do oh so much better. So get to it girl!

On Sunday, that is today, I got up and actually did a little of that early morning exercise that everybody keeps waxing so fine about. I only managed about 7 minutes though, on the bike (estatic bike do you say in English?). But heh, it was a start. Why I only managed that? Well I started to feel sicky. That is my problem in the mornings. I have a lot of mucose (snot) and it seems to go down to my stomach and give me that empty sicky feeling. I will try tommorow and see if it happens again. If it does, maybe I could try have one of those carbie drinks. (but where I would get one of those I don't know). I also did a fast walk with my boyfriend to his parent's house, (around 30 minutes). And, discounting exercise, I am just under points

Points for Sunday
Special K=2
yog =1
bar=2
toast=1.5
russian salad=5
bread=1
coliflower=0
apple=0
fish=2
2 bread + diet cream cheese= 4
popcorn (no fat) =2
special K=2
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22.5
- 2.5 exercise

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20 points (points allowed: 22)

So, not too bad, but my god it seems like so much food. But that is the magic of it. You can eat a lot, as long as it is the right food and you control the quantities. However, I must admit that a couple of week there were 4 times the ammount of veg and fruit, so that must improve (plus that damn water).

Next thing I want to work out are GOALS. I want to see if having clear goals helps me. I am going to give that some more thought.

Anyway, take care all, be good

Eli

Week 6: Weekly weighing

2005-03-18T12:05:00.000-08:00

Before I start: Liz, I can see the comment, it is below yours on "Reasons for losing weight) Maybe the blogelf is being naughty.

Well... I have had my weighing... and I am happy, because I have lost 600grams, that is just over half a kilo (1.3lbs). The happiness is that I had that bad week at the farm, and this week hasn't been modelic either...(but certainly a great deal better than before the diet), so I was scared that I would be the same, or even worse, fatter.

So, yeah! doesn't some weight loss make you feel just fine. I have drank a lot more water today, plus I did a walk. So good all round. Here goes today's points:

Allowed: 22 points

2 diet yogurts (2 points)
chesse sandwich (3 points)
caramel rice cakes(1.5 points)
2 diet yogurt (2 point)
2 diet yogurt (2 points)
4 cheese tosties (8 points)
1 kinder egg (2.5 points)
1 bread cheese (2 points)
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23 points

walking -1.5

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21.5 points

I have drank 3/4 of the water that I should, plus done exercise

I so much want to get up and do some early morning exercise. See if I do.

By the way, when I have my weighing, I see my % fat., which is not down to 32% being 37% at the beginning of the diet. BMI is now 29.1

So, take care all, be good

Eli

Week 6: Posts, pounds and inspiration

2005-03-18T01:13:00.000-08:00

Hi!

Thanks so much for the posts. I get so excited when I know people are reading me. Liz: I answered your first post in the comments of "reasons for losing weight". And Loretta: your wishes are my commands. I have put the conversion into pounds (but ouch, it sounds so much more! haha) I did it on my nokia which actually has one of those converter things. Very useful for someone like me. Even though I lived in England as a child, I never got the hang of pounds, feet etc. Anyway, hope the conversion was to your liking, and I PROMISE to keep posting. By the way, I could not access to either Liz or Lorettas blogs, please give me the URL.

Now, if anyone wants inspiration, do look at this http://www.geocities.com/snues208/
To see the meltdown pictures of Susan losing 211 pounds is truly amazing.

And... later on I will put today's points and exercise plus water (talking of that damn water I had better get myself a glass). Yesterday I didn't count points, I am angry at that. But I think I was not over. Weighing will tell all.

Anyway, point post later on, take care all, be good

Eli

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Counting points

2005-03-16T09:37:00.000-08:00

Wellll

I didn't get up to do that morning exercise, I didn't drink water either. But I have kept in my points (well actually I have finished them, a bit too early hum). So I thought that from now on I am going to put up my list of points. I am not that keen on my boyfriend seeing them, but I suppose that will help me to be good.

By the way, I had some very positive comments on early morning exercise. Even my boyfriend seemed convinced. So I am going to give it a try. See if I get my lazy ars up tommorow.

Here it goes:

Special K --------------------------------------2
bar -----------------------------------------------2
Apple -------------------------------------------0
Salad --------------------------------------------1
bread -------------------------------------------2
ham ----------------------------------------------1
soup ---------------------------------------------1.5
Apple -------------------------------------------0
KitKat -------------------------------------------5
bimbopizzas -------------------------------- 3.5
sweets ------------------------------------------3

exercise walking 30 mins - 2

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19

(points allowed 22)
Actually I have 1 points left, and if I do some exercise (which I haven't yet) even more.

And I have PMT. That accounts for the chocolate and sweets. The beauty of the WW system, is that you can have them in moderation without feeling guilty.

Anyway, take care all, be good

Eli

New Ideas

2005-03-15T11:39:00.000-08:00

Hi,

Well I have got a few ideas to give my diet a boost. (Extra kicks WW call them)

The first aim is to drink the water that WW advices me.

The second aim is to save a few points every day.

The third aim is to do some exercise before breakfast. I have read in a few places lately, that if you do exercise before you eat, your body uses your fat. My boyfriend is so agaisnt that idea. He says that he once went nearly blind and dizzy because he did exercise on an empty stomach. However, I am going to give it a go. Maybe a walk, biking? We shall see. If anyone has an opinion on exercing in the early morning, please give it to me.

Take care all, be good

Eli

Diet Trials

2005-03-14T06:45:00.000-08:00

Well I am back on track after the bad week on the farm. Counting my points, doing exercise (still not drinking enough water though). And today I want to talk about one of my favourite programms, which really inspired me to get back on my diet.

It is called Diet Trials and was on the BBC. On this, 300 people all over Britten volunteered to do one of four diets to which they were assigned randomly. The experiment was 6 months longThe diets being: WW (points system), Rosemary Conley diet (counting calories, low fat, exercise classes) Atkins (high protein) and Slim Fast (replacement drinks/soups plus one 600 calorie meal a day).

You would see these people in the home, at work, going for meals, in the supermarket. They also had a diet camara to which the talked. It was great fun, and very inspiring to watch. I loved it

At first, the people that followed the Atkins diet lost the most weight (around 1 stone in 1 month). Then gradually, the rest of the diets catched up.

Interesting results of the study was that the Atkins did not alter your colesterol. They also lost a lot of fat (Many critiques of the Atkin diet say that you only lose lean tissue and muscle). Me for one would not like to do it, but it certainly seems to have its advantages (like being able to eat a fry up yummy yum).

People on the slimfast were the ones that dropped out more. However those that stuck to it, lost a lot of weight, up to 3 stones.

Rosemary Conley is very popular, and proved to be the best as it was compulsary to do exercise. That meant that the quality of the weight loss was the best (always fat).

But WW was the favourite, because you could eat anything as long as you controlled your point intake. People went to the meetings, loved the support, and loved eating a bit of everything. Most people said that they would prefer to do that diet.

So, this is my favourite programme. It is oh so inspiring and so human. I think there is even a book written by Lindel Costain (check Amazon) about the programme and the study. If I get to read it I will give a review.

Anyway, be good, take care

Eli

On the Farm

2005-03-13T05:25:00.000-08:00

Well, I arrived on the farm on Monday morning. It is a lovely place in the middle of the countryside. We were shown to our rooms, and the kids were taken from us and put in the wise hands of the monitors. The owners are lovely people that show their hospitality by throwing food at us. That day, I managed to keep away from the pieces of cakes, and took fruit whenever it was offered. But it isn't easy... being in a different environment, not having my food at hand. I ended up eating things I shouldn't, but I must admit, I was very conscious of what I was eating, and I think that is a positive change. I didn't just stuff my face (which I would have a month ago) I ate some nice things, but without going over the top. I got back on Thursday, and from that day I have gone back to my diet. I haven't gone for a weighing yet. But anyway, all the teachers that didn't go to the farm have been saying how well and brown I look. I also went to the hairdressers to have highlights in my hair, so I am looking good. And that helps to make the effort with my diet. I have started wearing earings, putting on more makeup. I still haven't took a great interest in my clothes. I don't think that will happen til a significant weightloss happens.There is one thing that has stuck in my mind, and it was not a positive thing. One of my kids fell of a bunkbed and hurt her lip. She was okay, but we still took her to the doctors. I went with another teacher, who is 24, and very pretty and slim. The girl said that the other teacher looked "more like a teacher", and that she was thinner than me. So I said, what do I look like then? (thinking she might say, like a mummy) But she said: like a granny (!!!!!!!) My god, I am only 28, and I haven't even had kids yet!. Could it be that I wear glasses. That I wear plain clothes. I mean, I know that weight really does age, but that much??? I mean, I have noticed that now in shops people call me "Señora" and not "Señorita". I hope that will also change with weighloss. Anyway, that made me have the highlights, put earings in, and generally try to take more care with my appearance. But OUCH did that hurt. (I must admit that this same kid said to me a few months ago "Why do you always dress like a model). So I think I should take her comments in general with a pinch of salt.Well, back to dieting. Take care, Eli

Last Post until Thursday

2005-03-06T13:49:00.000-08:00

Anyway this will be my last post until Thursday as I am going with my class to the farm. (I talk about this on that post) You can see what farm I am at if you want at the following address http://www.albitana.com/ (I mean its all in Spanish, but you can see the pics) So, place your bets, will I come back all virtuous, having not eaten all that food that has my name on it? Or will I have given into tempation being in a foreign environment with nothing to do? On Thursday, I will tell all, and on Friday, my "weekly weighing" will tell even more.

Thanks for the email I got from Satu. I know that at least one person is reading me, and that this person is interested in weight and diets and all those other mad things I rant about.

Just an extra tipbit that made me laugh: My boyfriend being Spanish, and his English being limited, he asked me if WeightWatchers were those American guys that jumped about the beach in red bathing costumes (Baywatchers). Ever since I explained he's made jokes about them coming in a patrol car with a sirene on it to "save me" everytime I tried to put a piece of chocolate cake in my mouth. (He also says that Mitch is watching me with his binocules)

Anyway, just a bit of my boyfriend's mad humour. I mean you do have to laugh when you are on a diet (so not to cry)

Take care all, be good

Eli

Some problems blogging

2005-03-06T00:54:00.000-08:00

Hi

Just to say that I am having some problems blogging. Trying to add more things, more links, and they just don't seem to be happening. Hang on there.

By the way, I did not fast. Just too hungry for veg all day. I feel that I have been fasting all week the amount of veg and fruit I have had. I did an hour walk, and I am under my points to make up for Friday's mini binge.

Eli

My weekly weighing

2005-03-04T23:54:00.000-08:00

Well, I am really happy, because I went for my weekly weighing and I have lost a kilo and a bit. Therefore I am know in the 80's, and I swear I will never be back in the 90s again. (My boyfriend is 90 something, and when I see his height and build, I am really ashamed that I could weigh the same as him).

By the by, my weighing is not at a meeting or anything like that, as I do the weightwatcher distance programme. I go to a chemist, and hop on one of their sophisticated scales. This gives me a ticket that states my weight, and the ticket I stick it in the book where I have all my points and progress. I haven't been reaching my points this week, so I was desperate to see a difference. I made my boyfriend come with me to the chemist, and said that if I had not lost weight, I was going to fill my face with churros (A Spanish breakfast pastry). But I didn't mean it, and told him so, because I am so bloody determined to lose this weight.

So anyway, a tricky one is coming up: Next week I am going with several other teachers and my class to a farm. Here we stay the night, so of course here we eat. When we go to the farm, teachers are treated as royality, and lovely food and drinks are thrown at them constently. So it is going to be extra hard to bite into an apple when all this is going on. Plus, monitors take care of the kids, and therefore we don't have anything to do. Hummmm I am determined not only not to put on weight but to continue losing. This is my plan:

- To pig out on all the fresh salads and fruit they offer us

- To talk long walks

- To think of all my reasons and progress of my diet, so to not go off the rails.

Well, the diet is happening on Monday, today is Saturday, and I Oh so needed this weeked (the school and kids were sucking my vital energy like vampires). Last night I had a mini binge, though I must admit it was on things that I am eating daily, however, it was a about 10 points. I think today I am going to have a fast day, and eat loads of fruit and veg, and drink water. Meditate and be calm. It is not because of the binge, I mean, I could just have 10 points less today, and that would be it. I just feel that I need it, that my body and mind needs a fast. I will inform all on that

anyway, take care

Eli

Reasons for losing weight

2005-03-03T14:34:00.000-08:00

Well, we all have our reasons... mine being the following:

1. I am getting married in 6 months. I want to look lovely and thin. I don't like the look of being fat, it doesn't suit me, and I know it won't suit my wedding dress. I love clothes, and this is a great excuse to buy a gorgeous dress, and to hell if I am going to buy it in the XXXL size. (I am not having one of those church wedding, so its not a dress of that kind. But I still want a lovely frock)

2. When I met my boyfriend (4 years ago) I was 25 kilos lighter. He said that he loves me just the same, but he did think that I looked more attractive. It also makes him sad how little energy I have. So I would love to do it for him.

3. I want to have children in the next couple of years. To do so I want to be fit and thin, for my health and the baby's health. Also people tend to get extra kilos with pregnancy, and if so I don't want to be this weight when that happens (or I will be going over 100 kilos auuugghhhh! )

4. For ME ME ME. I want to wear nice clothes, go shopping and things fit. Feel confident, feel attractive. Have energy, be healthy etc etc

These are my main reasons, and they help me when I feel low and dieting seems hard and impossible.

bye, take care

Eli

First Entrance

2005-03-03T12:43:00.000-08:00

Hi

I have been on my diet now for 5 weeks. I am doing weightwatchers, but I receive it at home and don't go to any meetings.

My height is 1.73. I weigh 90 kilos (last week anyway). So... I am around 25 kilos over weight. (I am 28 by the way)

It's my weighing tomorrow. I hope to be in the 80's. I am allowed 22 points, and I haven't been going over 18,and I have been doing quite a lot of walking. Lets see

Today? 18 points (not enough water or exercise)

Eli